This cross brings four currents together. The first is ordering. Anything genuinely new arrives as a mess, and you are built to give it enough structure that it can take hold in the world. This energy pulses on and off, so the waiting between breakthroughs is real and the flat stretches can land as melancholy. That low is part of the mechanism, not a fault in you. The second is values, a guardian's instinct for the rules and structures that keep people well, and a constant scan for which ones have gone corrupt or need changing. The third runs underneath, in the body: a hunger to feel something new, a restless anticipation that some fresh experience is waiting just ahead. The fourth is influence, a voice that offers a direction and shows others how to reach it rather than doing it for them.
Notice how these four move as one rhythm. You feel the pull toward something better, you sense which of the old rules no longer serve, and you set about re-ordering things so that a new possibility can actually stand up. Your appetite for what could be is genuinely for other people, not only yourself. Your purpose is fulfilled through them. You are drawn into their lives and their systems, and what you carry for them is a wish made practical: a picture of a better arrangement, offered so persuasively that people want to follow it.
None of this arrives all at once. A cross like this is a direction rather than a job description, and it shows you its meaning slowly, over many years. The way to live it well is simple to name and takes practice to trust: follow your Strategy and your Authority, make each decision correctly for you, and honour the pulse rather than forcing change before the structures are ready. Do that, and the theme stops being an idea and becomes the life you are actually living.